I wish i didn't have to spend so much money on miscellaneous things of little importance yet great need and waste it on something like say a new phone which i need oh so desperately and clothes, which are always fun. Responsibilities suck.

i have come to realize that over the past two years i have really lost sight of the value of a dollar. This scares me. But i don't like caring about money, in fact i hate it. In a weird way. I definitly despise being a frugal queen no matter how broke i am, i will never stop being a generous. i don't know if this is good or bad...hmmm.

I ended up having lunch with a homeless man on bloor yesterday. it was kind of weird. I was coming home from work when i saw this poor guy pointing to this gigantic sign of this burger in front of Harvey's and saying "Could someone please buy me one of these?" Over and over again and i felt really bad because not only is he constantly reminded of his daily starvation from hunger pangs but he has to look at this giant picture of what he can't have just to torture him even more. So even though i am morally opposed to eating burgers i figured what the fuck and i brought him inside to buy a burger. When he ordered the workers kept giving him this "I'm better than you, you disguting beast" sort of look and kept saying "To Go" not as a question but more as an order. That really pissed me off so i ended up buying a veggie burger and saying "No, we're actually gonna have it for here" and she gave me like this really puzzled and annoyed look.

The amount of stares we got when we sat down was unbelievable. Like what the fuck, was i having lunch with big foot? Yes he was dirty, yes he smelled but it's not like they have any problem walking right past him on the street, like he's invisible, when he's asking for something to eat...arghhh!

What the fuck is people's problem? Do they feel infringed upon or somthing. All i can guess is that he reminds them of a place they most fear and would rather not acknowledge. Mofo's.

Anyways, that's my beef.

The guy ended up being really nice. He was schizophrenic and claimed his daughters were trying to kill him because of a beauty pageant he won when he was a hermaphrodite (sp?). Apparently he's tight with Jesus so he's gonna say "wassup" to him for me..haha. I know it's terrible to mock, but he had no idea.